Friends are great aren't they? My biggest shock to the system, is the realisation that I do actually have friends my own age after such a long time. If God is community, and we are made in his image, then we can only be truly ourselves when we are also in a community.
After the isolation of Timothy last year, I am now in a class of at least 20 people who I see at least twice a week. These are peers who are going through similar things to me. These are people who can relate to me and me to them. I suddenly rememebered my prayer from months back when I asked God to send some people who be friends to me. And here we are. My biggest worry is that I've spent so much time byself, that I can't actually socialise with these people. I'm stuck on 'comedy Craig' defense mode at the moment. But I need to shut him down and be myself.
I can't over look the wonderful potential of friends that I could make over the next few months and years. I need people.
More importantly I need God. This week I need to make a huge effort and spend some time praying etc... Mark has just lent me a book by John Ortberg, which I will wade through. Maybe it will help. I hope so. I don't want to feel only half-alive at the moment. I want to feel free and loved by the creator God. I know I am, but I want it to seem real to me.
Coming back to friends though, they have been so amazingly supportive. I hope that I can be an encouragement to them as they have already been to me.