Saturday, May 07, 2005

I'm still here!!

Don't worry! I haven't gone off and done something I'd regret! I'm still alive and well and back on track now it seems! (Phew!)

April was a one of the tough ones... I got my self into the well of despair, and didn't think I'd get out again. Thankfully God heard me and reached me out with those almost elasticated arms of His

I've spent a good few couple of weeks reflecting on life and my ministry and all sorts of things. Things weren't right with God. I've still got some habitual sin in my life (Asking God to stamp it out!) and it infected other areas of my life. I find that when you're not in your relationship with God, all the other problems, anxieties, demons that you have seem to get amplified. Not anymore!! Thank you Lord for rescuing me! (again) Thanks for not giving up on me. Thanks for sending such wicked people to talk things through with me (Adam B, and Mark especially). Thanks for helping me come to terms with the relationship that dad and I have. Thanks for bringing healing into our lives. I can't thank you enough.

So in other words I'm doing ok! Getting myself more organised, writing up timetables and thinking of other ways to discipline myself into leading a more efficient and more importantly, effective life. Reflecting, praying and reading scripture is also immensely helpful. I'm studying the Book of Ecclesiastes (o/t) which is about the "Teacher" living apart from God and seeing how pointless life is without Him.

Roots was amazing and extremely humbling. How wonderful to pray and come alongside young people. How awesome to speak to people and witnessing how God is transforming their lives in powerful ways!! Frigging cool!!!!

The most important thing for me is that God is speaking again, or maybe I've unblocked my ears to hear him. I either way it's great. I'm still passionate about the whole preaching thing. How on earth do I intend to have God speak through me if I can't hear Him? Thankfully that's changing. I've just thought how much like Saul (o/t) I seemed in my last post (Read 1 Samuel and you'll know what I mean!) Now I feel more like David: I believe God has a calling on my life. I need to be obedient and strive to be a man after His own heart.

We're gonna do it together.

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