Monday, January 31, 2005

Was blind but now....

I'm realizing that I seem to have lost the initial vision that I had for Upper Norwood SA when I first came here. Scary thought.

What is vision? Is it something that you only see through your eyes? I've SEEN a lot here that disappoints me. The attitudes, the arguments, the "living-dead" that turn up on a Sunday out of duty. Is this what true vision is? If we perceived everything through this type of sensory vision only. I think we'd be a lost cause.

No. Thank God that He gives us another sort of vision. HE is our vision. That's what I'm learning all over again. Yes there are many changes I would like to make. But it's not about ME.
God has plans for his church at Upper Norwood. He wants us to catch on to those plans. When we come to Him with a clear and honest heart, ready to receive from Him and ready to Give everything for Him. We can catch that vision once more.

I am praying that I can receive it from Him again. I want to be useful to Him. I want to see things through His eyes.

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Half-time review

Ok so I'm about halfway through Timothy already! I've been spending the past week or so trying to work out where it's taken me... spiritually I mean. Also what have I achieved during the 4months at my placement....

I guess it's normal to think that you never do enough or never work hard enough, but the thought is there looming like a bad smell or bitter taste. Nothing major, I'm not spending sleepless nights over it, but it's still there. To be honest I admit I haven't given 100% effort... Isn't that terrible!? Well anyway, I made a promise recently that I would throw my self into this experience with a whole-hearted attitude... I pray it's not tooo late.... I really want God to use me at this church. I know there's a lot of exciting times yet to come at my placement...I'm really happy we've managed to get the worship band up and running and actually leading worship! We have our first youth church starting up in Feb soon so thats something to look forward too!

Would be nice to be a piece of the divine jigsaw!


Wow I can't believe I've finally managed to get off my lazy butt and start something like this! I think it's important that I keep some kind of record of whats going on in my life at the moment. There are tons of memories, events, experiences, encounters and such that are happening to me and I want to remember them!

Firstly I want to thank God for His wonderful cleansing and healing power! He totally healed me yesterday of many screwed up things that were going on in my head and heart!

I'm going to be as honest as I can during the whole of this online adventure. If anyone other than me gets around to reading this, then I hope you can draw some encouragement from any stuff I type down here.